Memory

So, we sat down and he decided to speak up, I wrote his words down and he was all alone, again.

You were an escape from reality,

Teaching me ways to live in it.

You were my home,

When I felt alone, you became my bond.

You were my selfish reason, yet

I felt selfless with you.

You were the happiness that

I never felt before.

You made me feel, you made me reason.

When I felt none near, I felt you here.

Mind fluctuations were an adjustment, and

when I was finally fine,

you decided to make me memory.

Something was missing

the realization of me for you that I saw in you.

I am complicated and hard to be around, I agree.

A time shift, a mind shift, I told you things take time.

When I was finally free, and felt happy,

you made me a memory.

You made me believe, gave me reasons,

You don't recollect memories, but you have reasons.

I understand now what you felt, for I feel the same now.

Slowly it all fades out, leaves the wrong of me.

Overlooking the good of me.

You made me memory, I wish you didn't.

Perhaps one day, the memory will be a reality again,

But, will it be the same?

I try not to feel the same, but seeing you, takes me back.

Wonder it's only a matter of time.

Things I wanted to tell you,

Journeys I wanted to be with you,

Love I wanted to share with you,

might be a string of non-existent memories.

I don't know what love feels like, perhaps you don't too.

Whatever it is, but it really exists when I think of you.

I am sorry for being me, but don't worry

there won't be much of me for you to worry.

I am sorry for feeling for you, and speaking about it to you.

I am sorry, I replied you back when you didn't want to talk.

You were the one to trust, You were the reason I felt alive.

I am sorry.

You did good by making me a memory,

as I can never be good for you.

- sad_lilsoul