I was in Junior high when I knew
people could feel different types of
emotions. Happy,sad,anger,disgust,envy,a deep feeling of missing someone. Imagine how shocking that was to me.
Visiting days where only twice every term but
Sundays were a waver so anyone could visit students. I knew I was expecting two people that very Sunday. All week long I anticipated seeing them but I started to get this feeling in me as though there was a hole in my chest-something wasn’t right.
After lunch on Sunday I heard someone call my name in the hostel saying I had visitors. Of course I was excited so I got dressed and started running out of the hostel.
A throbbing headache and sharp pain cursing through my face followed by dizziness all within 45seconds. It took 45seconds to get the scar that changed my whole school term.
She said it was a mistake but until this very day I can’t bring myself to believe why she stretched out her leg in a place she knew students go by every now and then.
If the term ‘fell head over heels for you’ was a person,I’d be that person. I fell so hard on my face and got an injury that looked like it could never be healed.
The feeling of being worried about and looked after. Oh the man I MISS.
Getting to know what I was feeling all that week was an emotion called Miss.
the ability to feel one’s absence when they’re away from you,the unconsciousness to getting life scaring face injury for a person whom you knew was only a facade.
All I know is,that one experience opened my heart to this new world of self awareness and realising that humans actually have the capacity to feel so much.
Even though I don’t go through that path often, I know there’s an emotion that lets you feel like a chunk of your heart has been ripped out of your body or that there’s an opening in your soul that can’t be closed until you’re wrapped in the presence of that one person.