I start off my day with a dose of laughter because the rest of the day goes by with me struggling every second not to cry.
It’s difficult but when you’re half way through work and feel like looking at your wrist watch to confirm what the time is only to find out it’s not even 10am yet, you realise you’ve spent the best part of your morning worrying about things you can’t fix.
Who knew the age we anticipated turning so bad when we were 17 was going to come with so many baggage’s?
One day you’re 21 and the next day you’re turning 27 but in between these years, you never looked back for once to see if the dreams you wished and prayed you were living right now actually came through. All you worry about is the next 5years forgetting the last 5years is where you had your best memories.
I’m only coming to the greatest realisation of my existence; that I prayed for this life many years ago and I asked for this age but now that it is here,I’ve done nothing but be anxious for even daring to turn this age at all.
I will live in the constant fear of myself failing to do the things I hope to do but before then, say the grace today and everyday.
I give thanks not for a life well lived but for a life lived at all because in life all that is worth celebrating is something that has been achieved and all I have achieved is staying alive.
Now at nearly 30, I’m left picking up the tiny pieces of the leftover laughs I had when I was only 15 and something in me knows that I will never have that again in my life.
Adulthood has been teaching me a lot lately. That if you don’t make a constant effort to take care of yourself, your body will pick a day for you and you surely will not like the outcome.
That if you don’t make a visible effort to keep up with your friends, you’ll wake up one day to an empty contact list.
That if you don’t cherish your family each and every day, you’ll wake up one day and struggle to catch up with them.
We can’t always pick the life we want for ourselves but we can enhance it daily.
It’s never easy but who ever said it was going to be? All you have to do is wake up and show up and if this is the only message you see today, God is definitely speaking to you.